He’s Human After All

Travis doesn’t feel pain.

At least…not like you and I feel pain.  He can’t relate to people who stay home sick.  Sickness has never slowed him down.  If he breaks his arm…he simply uses his other arm to wakeboard.  If he is passing a kidney stone…he shows up for the tennis match anyway.  When he had foot surgery on both feet he played golf two days later…bleeding through his shoes.  Most things that would bring others to their knees…Travis tends to walk right through.

It’s almost as if…he’s not human. 

In the post, Chemo?  What Chemo?, I wrote about being sick in bed for three days and Travis texting me, 48 hours out from his first chemo, to see if I was ok. So I have witnessed, first hand, how this guy handles sickness and pain and have thought…

this guy’s not human.  

So imagine my surprise.  My shock.  My fear.  When I get the text last night that Travis is having unimaginable pain.  Unmanageable pain.  Unbearable pain.

Travis’ scalp has been…”sensitive” since this past chemo session.  My hunch is that Trav’s “sensitive” would equate to a trip to the ER if it were me but that is how he described it…”sensitive”.  But last night there was something different.  Something worse.  It wasn’t his scalp.  It was his brain.  

Three times.  Three separate times.  Pain.  Sharp pain.  Sudden, sharp, radiating pain sheering through his brain in jolts as if he is being struck with a cattle prod.  Three times…evenly spaced throughout the evening…they hit.

Pain that made him scream out.

Pain that took his breath away.

Pain that literally took him to his knees and showed that he is human after all.

Can you imagine what it is like, when you have cancer, and face a new pain?  Can you imagine what your mind does to you?  It’s simply my friend who has cancer and, yet, any time I feel something weird inside or my kids complain of something weird…suddenly…I give pause.  A second thought.  A “what if” flashes through my mind.  If I am like that…what is the person who has cancer cells inside his body like when there is a new pain?  Can you imagine what his mind does to him?  Especially a person who does not usually experience pain and suddenly has insurmountable pain. What goes through his head? What goes through his wife’s head?

Did it spread?

Is it in the brain now? 

If it’s in the brain…there are only weeks left. 

Today was better. It was back to being…”sensitive”.  And Travis got to speak to his doctor who believes last night was a side effect of the chemotherapy.  A side effect that doesn’t usually come until you are on chemo for several months or even years.  But Travis is a freak.  He’s back to being non-human.  He doesn’t get those pesky side effects like fatigue or nausea or hair loss.  He get’s lightening bolts through his brain.

Perhaps the three jolts last night were a fluke.  A response to a very long and strenuous weekend.  Perhaps this is something that will occur every night the way fevers and sicknesses get worse at night.  I hope not.  I pray not.  I don’t want my friend to go through this unimaginable pain.  I don’t want to face that my dear friend…

is human after all.

Interview 2 of 6

Tonight we have part two of the six part interview series. If you did not get a chance to see Part One, or would like a refresher, I encourage you to watch it first. In tonight’s short, four minute clip Steve gets Travis to open out about first finding out that “something” is going on and what that was like.  In a way, perhaps, this was the first time that Travis realized he was human after all….

Legal Disclaimer…All blog posts and videos are Travis’ experiences and opinions.  Travis is not a medical expert or even in the medical field.  Cancer is different for each person and so nothing on this blog should be taken as fact or used for determining diagnosis’s or treatments.
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7 responses to “He’s Human After All

  • Kymberly

    Lord God and Loving Father, grant Travis and Carrie clarity and understanding through this process. Give them Your wisdom during the fearful times, the new and uncertain events. Lord will you cover them as a mist that they may breathe in Peace and Comfort. May all of the days written for Travis be fulfilled in your perfect will.

  • kristine sevy

    I have been reading your posts and a very very dear friend of mine sent this to me and I am obliged to send this to you so you can read it asap.  Blessings, Kris

    “SHARE THIS INFORMATION FIRST AND READ AFTERWORDS…..SAVE LIFE Share this as much as you can.

    “10000 times stronger killer of CANCER than Chemo”.. do share it.. can save many lives, fill up hopes and build confidence in the patients…

    The Sour Sop or the fruit from the graviola tree is a miraculous natural cancer cell killer 10,000 times stronger than Chemo.

    Why are we not aware of this? Its because some big corporation want to make back their money spent on years of research by trying to make a synthetic version of it for sale.

    So, since you know it now you can help a friend in need by letting him know or just drink some sour sop juice yourself as prevention from time to time. The taste is not bad after all. It’s completely natural and definitely has no side effects. If you have the space, plant one in your garden. The other parts of the tree are also useful.

    The next time you have a fruit juice, ask for a sour sop.

    How many people died in vain while this billion-dollar drug maker concealed the secret of the miraculous Graviola tree?

    This tree is low and is called graviola ! in Brazil l, guanabana in Spanish and has the uninspiring name “sour-sop” in English. The fruit is very large and the sub acid sweet white pulp is eaten out of hand or, more commonly, used to make fruit drinks, sherbets and such.

    The principal interest in this plant is because of its strong anti-cancer effects. Although it is effective for a number of medical conditions, it is its anti tumor effect that is of most interest. This plant is a proven cancer remedy for cancers of all types.

    Besides being a cancer remedy, graviola is a broad spectrum antimicrobial agent for both bacterial and fungal infections, is effective against internal parasites and worms, lowers high blood pressure and is used for depression, stress and nervous disorders.

    If there ever was a single example that makes it dramatically clear why the existence of Health Sciences Institute is so vital to Americans like you, it’s the incredible story behind the Graviola tree..

    The truth is stunningly simple: Deep within the Amazon Rain forest grows a tree that could literally revolutionize what you, your doctor, and the rest of the world thinks about cancer treatment and chances of survival. The future has never looked more promising.

    Research shows that with extracts from this miraculous tree it now may be possible to: * Attack cancer safely and effectively with an all-natural therapy that does not cause extreme nausea, weight loss and hair loss * Protect your immune system and avoid deadly infections * Feel stronger and healthier throughout the course of the treatment * Boost your energy and improve your outlook on life

    The source of this information is just as stunning: It comes from one of America ‘s largest drug manufacturers, th! e fruit of over 20 laboratory tests conducted since the 1970’s! What those tests revealed was nothing short of mind numbing… Extracts from the tree were shown to:

    * Effectively target and kill malignant cells in 12 types of cancer, including colon, breast, prostate, lung and pancreatic cancer.. * The tree compounds proved to be up to 10,000 times stronger in slowing the growth of cancer cells than Adriamycin, a commonly used chemotherapeutic drug! * What’s more, unlike chemotherapy, the compound extracted from the Graviola tree selectively hunts down and kills only cancer cells.. It does not harm healthy cells!

    The amazing anti-cancer properties of the Graviola tree have been extensively researched–so why haven’t you heard anything about it? If Graviola extract is

    One of America ‘s biggest billion-dollar drug makers began a search for a cancer cure and their research centered on Graviola, a legendary healing tree from the Amazon Rainforest.

    Various parts of the Graviola tree–including the bark, leaves, roots, fruit and fruit-seeds–have been used for centuries by medicine men and native Indi! ans in South America to treat heart disease, asthma, liver problems and arthritis. Going on very little documented scientific evidence, the company poured money and resources into testing the tree’s anti-cancerous properties–and were shocked by the results. Graviola proved itself to be a cancer-killing dynamo. But that’s where the Graviola story nearly ended.

    The company had one huge problem with the Graviola tree–it’s completely natural, and so, under federal law, not patentable. There’s no way to make serious profits from it.

    It turns out the drug company invested nearly seven years trying to synthesize two of the Graviola tree’s most powerful anti-cancer ingredients. If they could isolate and produce man-made clones of what makes the Graviola so potent, they’d be able to patent it and make their money back. Alas, they hit a brick wall. The original simply could not be replicated. There was no way the company could protect its profits–or even make back the millions it poured into research.

    As the dream of huge profits evaporated, their testing on Graviola came to a screeching halt. Even worse, the company shelved the entire project and chose not to publish the findings of its research!

    Luckily, however, there was one scientist from the Graviola research team whose conscience wouldn’t let him see such atrocity committed. Risking his career, he contacted a company that’s dedicated to harvesting medical plants from the Amazon Rainforest and blew the whistle.

    Miracle unleashed When researchers at the Health Sciences Institute were alerted to the news of Graviola,! they be gan tracking the research done on the cancer-killing tree. Evidence of the astounding effectiveness of Graviola–and its shocking cover-up–came in fast and furious….

    ….The National Cancer Institute performed the first scientific research in 1976. The results showed that Graviola’s “leaves and stems were found effective in attacking and destroying malignant cells.” Inexplicably, the results were published in an internal report and never released to the public…

    ….Since 1976, Graviola has proven to be an immensely potent cancer killer in 20 independent laboratory tests, yet no double-blind clinical trials–the typical benchmark mainstream doctors and journals use to judge a treatment’s value–were ever initiated….

    ….A study published in the Journal of Natural Products, following a recent study conducted at Catholic University of South Korea stated that one chemical in Graviola was found to selectively kill colon cancer cells at “10,000 times the potency of (the commonly used chemotherapy drug) Adriamycin…”

    ….The most significant part of the Catholic University of South Korea report is that Graviola was shown to selectively target the cancer cells, leaving healthy cells untouched. Unlike chemotherapy, which indiscriminately targets all actively reproducing cells (such as stomach and hair cells), causing the often devastating side effects of nausea and hair loss in cancer patients.

    …A study at Purdue University recently found that leaves from the Graviola tree killed cancer cells among six human cell lines and were especially effective against prostate, pancreatic and lung cancers Seven years of silence broken–it’s finally here!” (TIME FOR LEARNING)

      In God We Trust………….I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

    ________________________________

  • kristine sevy

    Raised with Christ A Soul Shepherding Moment By Bill Gaultiere © 2013 For many of us experiencing pain brings fear. What’s wrong with my body? Will my pain get worse?  Some time ago a friend of mine was having intermittent chest pains. The doctor said his heart was fine and the pain was from stress gripping his chest. I told him that he was caught in a vicious cycle: anxiety was causing heart pain which in turn was triggering his fear of death. His mortality was up in his face because he was battling cancer. He was afraid to die in the prime of his life and leave behind a family that needed him. We had many tearful talks. He cried, “I want to see my daughter graduate from college and to walk her down the aisle at her wedding. I want to see my grandchildren grow up. I don’t want my wife to be alone.” The Heavens Touch the Earth We also talked about heaven. He was a Christ-follower and knew that he’d go to heaven when he died, but heaven had always seemed a far off and a way later. It seemed so separate from his life today — till he meditated on Colossians 3:1-3: Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory. He realized that his real life was not his physical life, but his spiritual life. By setting aside living on his own terms he was “raised with Christ” and the life of his soul was “now hidden with Christ in God.” He could take hold of the hand of Christ and step into the heavenly realms of the Kingdom of God right now.  A Heavenly Breath Prayer To be raised with Christ isn’t only a theological idea it’s also about how we live today. To help my friend submit to the rule of Christ and experience the reality that he was actually raised with Christ I taught him a two-part Breath Prayer inspired by Colossians 3:1. “My life is in Christ… I will not fear.” Let’s try it together: * As you breathe in pray, “My life is in Christ…” * As you breathe out pray, “I will not fear.” It helps to repeat this Breath Prayer from the Bible a number of times, breathing and praying slowly and deeply. You’re using your body to engage your mind and heart with Christ. What peace this brings! Appreciating the life of Christ… Releasing fear. Trusting the rule of Christ… Renouncing self-rule. “Breathing in” the heavens… “Breathing out” anxiety. Our Bible Study on “The Kingdom of the Heavens is Open to You Now” will help you not only get into heaven when you die but also get heaven into you before you die! Your friends can sign up for our free Devotional e-mails.   In God We Trust………….I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

  • Felicia Conwell

    Travis, you hang in there. You control the sickness. The sickness doesn’t control you, unless you let it. You are my inspiration. So don’t you give up. You keep fighting through the pain and know that this too shall pass. This battle is not going to be easy. I know first hand having to fight this three times myself and IMy prayers are with you and Carrie. Carrie, keep encouraging Travis, I need to see that sunshine behind that smile when he comes in for his appointment.

  • Felicia Conwell

    Travis, you hang in there. You control the sickness. The sickness doesn’t control you, unless you let it. You are my inspiration. So don’t you give up. You keep fighting through the pain and know that this too shall pass. This battle is not going to be easy. I know first hand having to fight this three times myself. My prayers are with you and Carrie. Carrie, keep encouraging Travis, I need to see that sunshine behind that smile when he comes in for his appointment.

    • Travis

      Pain all gone 😉 You make me happy to come there. I look for you every time a come there. You put the smile on my face .

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