Welcome 2014.

We welcome you with both anxiousness and anxiety.  With both joy and fear.  With “are we ready to face the next chapter?” and “thank You Lord that chapter is over!”.

For the Roberts, 2013 was simultaneously the best and worst year of their lives. It brought a lot of heartache.  But it brought a lot of joy as well. The Roberts felt more than they knew was possible in 2013.

Fear. Sorrow. Regret. Sadness. Sadness that cut to the bone and brought out grief they did not know was possible.  Days they had to remind themselves just. to. breathe.

But those weren’t the only new feelings.

Friendship. Peace. Hope. Love. Travis experienced love in 2013 he never truly experienced previously.  Love of family. Love of friends.  Love of His Savior.

Travis has had two treatments of the new chemo and the trial medications are, for the most part, out of his system.  They were brutal to say the least but the only remnants are some scaring clearing out from the rash and a bit of white fuzz in his facial hair.  They are thankful that chapter has ended.

The new chemo treatment is not too bad.  It comes with the typical side effects of chemotherapy…some nausea, headaches, fatigue and the occasional, spontaneous vomiting. But, compared to the trial…it’s a piece of cake.  They can handle this chapter for a while.  Hopefully…for a long while.  They have decided to give it a full month before checking the CA19-9 to determine its full effect.  It’s been two weeks.  They have two to go.  Hopefully, this chapter will be a long one.

The holidays were as to be expected.  They so desperately wanted to enjoy every second.  To soak in every moment.  Enjoy their children laughing as they opened their presents.  Giddy with excitement.  But it was always there.  In the back of their minds.  

Is this the last Christmas?

Will I be here next Christmas?  

Will I be doing Christmas alone next year?

Always there. Always in the back of their minds.  Unable to skip the next few chapters and read the end of the story.

And, at the turn of the New Year, the rest of us were reflecting on the passing year and making resolutions for the new year.

I will get organized.  I will lose weight.  I will start going to church.

It didn’t occur to us to wonder…

Is this my last year?

Will I see the ball drop on Times Square next year?

Will he be here to kiss me at midnight net year?

There is no looking ahead to the next chapter.

With the holidays behind us and routine setting back in we will likely forget our silly resolutions.  The gyms will clear out by February.  Churches will be less full with each passing Sunday.  Our closets will start to overflow.  But, for the Roberts, the questions that came on New Years will continue to ring fresh in their minds.  Come February…April….July…the same questions will remain as they can’t peak ahead and see how many chapters are left. 

And so there is one resolution I ask that you not forget.  One that I ask you not give up on.  One that I hope you will remember come February…April…July.  And that is simply to pray.  Pray for the Roberts and all that they deal with every day.  As they try to give their children the best and most normal life they can despite Cholangiocarcinoma.  As they try to encourage one another. As they try to just. remember. to. breathe. And, finally, pray for Travis’ complete healing. Pray for the miracle.  If you have prayed it a hundred times.  Pray it a hundred more.

Because we are unable to read ahead.  Unable to skip this chapter.  Unable to peak at the ending.

15 responses to “Chapters

  • Bob bracewell

    I will keep praying, no matter how many times I ask, I will keep asking, I will keep praying. You do not know me, I am a friend of Tyson and I live in CA. I appreciate the update. I pray every day, every time I think of you and your family!

  • Debbie Neel

    I lurk on this blog; I pray more than you know or that I could have imagined at the beginning of this journey. I pondered this Christmas if this might be my last Christmas- or yours – or someone else we know…. Thank you for the reminder to consider authentically… What is a significant new year resolution? What is important? You are. I will continue to pray – for healing

  • mommajane59

    Continue to lift you in prayer!

  • Anonymous

    Dear Travis & Carrie, I pray for you every day that you may live to see your children mature and become loving adults like their special parents.I ask my husband in Heaven to talk with God….that you may become healed.You have touched my heart and hopefully can get well for your family and my beloved Wes!

  • sandra

    I will definitely continue to pray!

  • Anonymous

    We have a great God who is always doing new things, who loves and sustains us a and all creation. Hopefully you will soon be able to “Sing to The Lord a new song!” Psalm 96

  • Anonymous

    Will will never give up and continue to pray as we know all of you do!! I will say Happy New Year to all of you and look for only good news in 2014!!

  • Felicia Conwell, Kaiser Permenente

    God of all creation, you who spoke a simple command and brought forth light from the darkness, I ask you now to send forth your miracle-working power to heal Travis. You cleansed the lepers, opened the eyes of the blind and by speaking a simple command, you empowered the crippled to rise up and walk. You sent forth your life-giving power to all those in need, including those You raised from the dead. I ask you to send forth Your healing power into Travis’s body and give him the strength to fight this cancer. God take away the cancers that are consuming his body. Help him to survive this, become stronger, and help spread the Lords love. Be with his family through this trying time. Help them to flourish in strength and understanding. Help them to rally around Travis and support him through his healing. Give this family all they need to survive this cancer and enrich their lives with your love. I ask this through my Lord, Jesus Christ, your Son, who lives and reigns with You and the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever. Amen.

    Praying with you and for you always.

    Love Felicia

  • Debbie

    Praying Gods peace and strength for you all…

  • Anonymous

    Travis and Carrie,
    Our God is an Awersome God. He want put no more on you than you can’t handle. I’m continuing to keep you and your family in my prayers. It’s always ajoy to see you when you come in to visit us. There’s always a smile on your face or you saying something silly to have me call Carrie on you. We at Cumberland love each one of you.

  • Michele

    God is able to do immeasurably more than we can think, imagine or ask.

  • Lisa Sager

    Prayers will continue for healing for Travis and for all of you to feel God’s presence, each and every day. Love and peace to you and your beautiful children. Fondly, Lisa Sager

  • Anonymous

    Prayers continue and my heart is so full for each of you! I understand every minute counts, each filled with love. And LOVE wins!
    “Be still and know that I am God” Psalm 46:10 …..
    Love from all the Adler’s

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